I wish I could create a timeline. A timeline of my life, that outlines all the major events in my life. I would star the events that were directly related to a decision I made. There would not be many. I dealt with all these things. I never gave up. I never became bitter. And I tried to be a great person, hold myself to some ridiculously high standard in the process. I paid for college, graduated, worked, bought a house, everything I was "supposed" to do. I worked out two times a day and averaged 50 hours a week at work. I was miserable.
I am not that person anymore. I am happy.
Throughout my 20s, I got alot of advice. I dated some guys that would tell me what would make me a better person, listened to "friends" tell me what would make me a better person... After this about broke me, I raised my white flag. This is me. I am not going to defend it. People might judge me for it, that is fine. In the end the only one that has to deal with the decisions I make is me, finally. It is going to be a ridiculous ride... I can tell.
